Around 8 o’clock I woke up as if I have had a deep princess sleep and then was kissed by royal food. I could barely fall asleep yesterday when I realised that I have to make something Finnish for our Easter lunch. I found that I have some ingredients that could have made my all time favourite dish. I know, I don’t think anyone thinks of Finnish cuisine as something mind blowing, but seriously, no one should miss out on trying homemade Karjalanpiirakoita (Karelian pasties). However, I had never made them myself before. To be honest, they were only okay. I did it on the wrong flour and I only had risotto rice. I’m going to practice, especially now when a dear friend promises to visit if I make them well.
I should have kicked out the prinskorvar and meatballs (saving meatballs for mashed potatoes) and made lamb with my nans mint sauce instead. I even have mint in one of my pots. Yes, I swore about it, nevermind. Traditions are important to me. But I always feel free to alter them and make them our own. So this will be this time and next year I’m going to plan until my planning apps on the phone drop.
This morning I sneaked up before everyone else to enjoy a 45 minute stretch on the balcony. Watching the sun slowly spread it’s light over the roof tops and sides of the buildings. It was lovely to breathe in the morning with (no Disney!) music, alone. But when I was done I just wanted everyone to wake up. Well, as a good mother I nicely waited.
When I took a quick walk to the mini market (gotta support it!) for more potatoes I could not help myself from picking a few wild flowers for our table. I said yesterday I would have wanted yellow roses, but I prefer these. The green ones (don’t know their name, but see picture below and let me know) are from my bouquet of roses I received for my birtday, 20th December last year. The view make me so, so happy.
Then the Easter bunny came to visit.
I prepared the lunch/dinner early to not stress it. After all, I love to cook and the music made me dance and today not caring if our neighbour in the opposite window would see me. A womans gotta dance!
Now the evening sun is reaching the table outside. Appeantly it’s time for music and listen to music.
We woke up to a blue sky and sunshine today. In March it rained three times more than usual. What about where you live? We’re not missing out on great weather during these weeks and we all actually think it’s cosy to listen to the rain. But sunshine brings light to my mind.
Well, Good Friday and I had decided to make it fun. We opened the art and crafts factory for the day, while Filip was working. The kids and I brought out all that we had to the balcony table, listened to music and allowed us to just play around with colours, scissors and play dough that I made. We did little bunnies and chickens. They’ve been baked in the oven and tomorrow we will go nuts with the glue gun and the little colours we have left.
– I’m stressed about the school situation for the kids. They’ve been doing so well. I can see them as sponges picking things up in, (for someone like me) ultra speed. They learn from us, school, tv and friends. We always have to remember that little pitchers have big ears, nowadays even in English. We can’t get away with anything. Their sense of humor picks up irony and every little attempt of cryptic speaking. In vain I’ve been trying to teach Filip a few useful things in Finnish.
– Also worried about my work situation. I hadn’t gotten my business started, I was slowly beggining to. Now I’m convinced no one will book photo shoots when lockdown is over. It breaks my heart. I can barely think about. I will not be able to do what I’m supposed to be doing, maybe for a long time. I’ve got a few projects to try in the mean time. However, suddenly I’m afraid I can’t learn new things. Before I was super sure that if I wanted to learn, I would. I feel like I’m stuck with completely useless skills. What a waste of time learning them.
– Conversation with Wille (who now prefers to be called Wilhelm).
Wille: What’s for lunch?
Me:… We’re eating dinner now.
Wille: Oh, what was for breakfast?
Me: You slept till noon, you got lunch for breakfast.
Wille: Oh, wow, I really hate waking up too early.
Me: Okay, teenager.
– He was going to spell out dog, he went “g o d… No no, not god, dog! D o g!” I was impressed.
– His most used phrase “Är det korrekt?” Which means, “is this correct”. I think that comes from school.
– Began the morning with maths, her favorite subject.
– If any of us smile our laugh she says, “funny, right?”.
– Miss Fair Police, everything has to be completely fair. Everyone has to do what they say that they were going to do. If plans changes she wants to be informed. Preferably also accept or deny them. If you promise something and back out, you’re a liar, which in her world seems to be the most horrible kind of person.
– She still comes in every night and says, “Mamma I want to be with you“. She snuggles in and puts her ice cold feet between my tighs. Her words makes me feel like the luckiest mum in the world.
Now it’s time to continue watching the new Sune movie. We all think Håkan is a very funny character.
Happy Easter everyone, take care of each other, be kind and eat good food, and then eat a little more.
Yesterday we celebrated our wedding anniversary. I had wished for us to have been able to plan something outside of our apartment walls. But never mind, we cooked a lovely dinner, cheered with Cava and listened to music on the balcony. It was more than enough and I got to spend it together with my squad.
It’s a little funny, when the kids were too young to sit and chat at the table, we wanted them to just watch a movie so we could eat a whole meal without running around. Oh, how we sometimes tried to make them sit in front of a screen for at least 10 minutes. Now they are big enough to have joyful conversations with and they rather watch movies (!)
This morning I had some sad brown bananas. So I decided to make Albas favorite breakfast. The Spanish strawberries were very sweet.
Today’s plan is unclear. I hope to write a little. Filip is working and the kids are trying to learn to read. I decided to go to the store closest to us to pick up dill (eneldo in Spanish) and shrimps to make Skagenröra for our Easter celebration. I shouldn’t have gone, we are only allowed to buy necessary things. But we’ve been so good with big shoppings to avoid going too often. I searched the whole store. Eventually a worker there looked at me so I’d thought I’d ask. To my surprise he also searched everywhere, even in their storage. We didn’t find it but I was over the moon to find salmon. We also have Abbas sill (pickled herring), prinskorvar from the Scandinavian store, “Prinskorv, which directly translates to “prince sausage”, is a small Swedish sausage which is often sold in links. Created in 1805 by Viennese butcher Georg Lahner, this dish is usually fried in a frying pan and served with a generous helping of mustard.” And snaps. (And eggs) I’m making homemade meatballs. So we are covered I’d say! I’m mucho excited.
By the way, since we moved here I’m always on the balcony. Yes, I have stop saying it. But I made a bird friend, it could sit on the glass fence and hold me company. I’ve never purposely fed it, but obviously there are crumbs from kids eating. Now I’ve unfriended him, he was rude enough to fly into our living room and kitchen TWICE, one of the times he sat down one our washed frying pan. That’s just a limit I have, I was terrified of it, I screamed like a crazy person. Normally I don’t even like birds. He was an exception.
As I’m writing this I’ve been sitting on the balcony. I have to tell you one thing going on in Spain, at 20.00 everyone goes out on their balcony to clap their hands for the health care, police and all the other heroes. At 21 they thank everyone back by driving by with the sirens on to thank everyone for staying inside. To me it doesn’t sound as amazing as the feeling actually is. It truly touches me and warms my heart. It’s absolutely beautiful. But, just as a heads up, this post might be posted hours after because awesome humans are interrupting me in between. But don’t hold your breath, it’s all coming here below.
Today was an all in cleaning day, I took almost all rooms and the balcony. I even washed windows, as a short person I just wish there was some kind of universal free pass. In the meantime the kids were learning to read through an app and they did a little maths too. We decided to have a little “school” during the Easter break. Don’t feel too sorry for them. We began the morning with playing fortnite in bed. We are about to do so an hour tonight too. It’s so much fun and a little crazy, we’re in one team all four of us and we scream at each other as if our lives depended on it.
In the afternoon we opened the “weekly shop”, which contains different things, every time. It can be candy, juice, ice cream, crisps, a small toy and fruit. They get 10 pretend money a day, and a little extra when they help around the house. They need to count themselves, plan for the whole day (and the coming days). If they leave some money in the “bank” for next time, they get 10 extra. They love it! Today Alba spent almost all hers to buy for Wilhelm too so they would have equal amount of goodies.
They are too sweet together sometimes. When they played games Wille screamed once “don’t you take my sister, arrgh” and another time “she’s the best girl in the universe!”. They do fight more than usual too. But with all the cuteness it’s easily forgotten.
Update about the kids:(I think this is difficult to come up with what to report, while we are in it. Ask questions and I’ll answer.)
–Best friend: John from Germany. They call each other sometimes during these day’s and last time they said they missed each other. I’m hoping it’s a lifetime friendship. John and his brothers are wonderful kids.
English: He speaks well and understands even more. It’s hilarious to hear his little phrases even when he is saying stuff like “I don’t care!”. It drives me mad but I can’t help myself from smiling.
Swedish: He is using “bigger” words, without knowing exactly how to use them correctly. But he’s getting there. And he can say “Det är inte en spännande story” when he doesn’t want to tell. It means “it’s not an exciting story”. Cheeky, I know.
Activity: He still plays padel and enjoys it. I usually take him on Mondays. We take the bikes by the beach. I love that little time I get with my big boy. And during that time it’s Filips and Albas turn to cook dinner and they often choose a theme and it’s agreat surprise to look forward to while sporting.
Dream job: To build tv-games like fortnite to make a lot of money to make even more games.
Wants most in the world right now (06.04.2020 time: 21.48) : Play fortnite with John.
Favourite School topic: English, Reading.
– ALBA –
Best friend: Ellie (from kindergarten in Sweden) and Danish Victoria in school.
English: From refusing to speak in front of anyone else but Wille to being angry in English. It’s adorable! Suddenly both kids change their language to English when they play or watch tv. Her vocabulary is surprisingly big coming from not knowing exactly if she learns so much without speaking at all. A greater surprise is that she says she has so many friends without speaking a word at school. She also manages to change things for her snack box. Like berries for cookies (cookies are not even allowed, good silent negotiator).
Activity: Alba has been asking and wanted so badly to start gymnastics. She loves the idea but was frustrated with the classes because she wasn’t learning anything new. She also enjoys padel and will maybe join us Mondays.
Dream job:Prison guard
Wants most in the world right now (06.04.2020 time: 21.50: Play fortnite with the family forever.
So, please ask questions, they would even love to share!
Even though I’m not happy about being in quarantine, I’d do it all over again and again. It has been so incredibly upsetting to hear anyone going against it, by the law or as a recommendation. It’s the most stupid and selfish act I’ve been in contact with. All the nutcases stocking up on everything leaving others in need without is a tiny matter in comparison. I could not care less about arguments like “we are young”, “symptom free” or what ever ridiculous excuse. If a country has decided this – just stay the fuck in. Excuse my French, as I said I don’t speak much Spanish yet.
I’m not so worried about the four of us in this household. (Except for the fact that I don’t want my three people to be ill by anything.) But we decided to act as if we were carrying Corona. The very thought of being the one putting someone at risk and god forbid, someone died. Because of me, I’d crumble from the inside.
However, with that said. I’m not entirely sure quarantine was the right way to go. Or if Sweden has a winning strategy. I see the issues, I can imagine many different ways it can be really horrible, both of them. This is for sure, as all know, changing everything. I just think a little common sense can’t be to much to ask, right? Treat your fellow people as if they were your family members. As if they were your grandparents, siblings and children.
Wow, half past one at night. Oh, well, we won and lost in fortnite if anyone was wondering?
Instead of starting every post, for whoever finds it, with how I really hope you and your family are well. I’ll say, I hope so for everyone, just as I’m sure we all do. Let’s agree on that we are wishing good health and love for everyone. Si? Gracias.
So, to less important stuff a drumroll, please *Hooray, we managed to order takeaway food for delivery from the Indian restaurant Masala.
It was with uncertainty that we selected dishes from the online menu. I was expecting it not to work, that’s how much I really wanted to just dig into beutiful food that would be delivered to our door. I had to lower my hopes, it was an act of survival. But to my joy it rang on our door bell just as I was going to pop around the pharmacy. I had a nice short walk, felt like a criminal creeping through a ghost town, picked up what I needed and as I was ready to eat when the news reached me.
The quarantine in Spain is extended to the 25th of April.Everyone just sit and calm down, for crying out loud! Oh… that’s only myself I’m telepathically screaming at.
Well, let’s say this much. The decision was something I had been expecting, yet it felt unbelievable. But maybe the combination of a walk, gorgeous food and a phone call from my very dear friend, kept me from bursting out in tears.
Maybe, just maybe I’m being ridiculous here for lowering my expectations or setting them high when it’s regarding things completely out of my control. Let’s say I could maybe have learnt something about this. Maybe.
But with certainty I know, that my family and I are, in a way, on a journey, life is happening. But we are somehow having the time of our lives. Because we’re in it together. I’ll regret writing this, for sure, but just the fact that I swear like a drunken pirate when one of the people I love the most kicks me out of bed, is love to my very core. It means I have them right here. Close to me. The oceans and sands, long walks, sunsets and mountains will wait for me. But I wouldn’t want to miss a second right here.
What about the title of the post? It’s the name of our Friday movie last night. It was a little disappointing but still a cosy and romantic story. They had us interested with a family moving from India to open a restaurant in France right in front of a one star Michelin restaurant. So, therefore the choice of dinner. The movie that made us 20/21 days in through the quarantine to seek for food delivery. Because Indian food is lovely, and sadly I really don’t know how to cook it myself.
Check out this next photo. I hate that I found these…
They are amazing! And I’m not a snack person. I actually don’t like sweet stuff. I want them salty, sour or bitter. This will never end well..
Tomorrow I’m posting a little “what’s up with the kids” so that family, god-family (don’t want to leave the godfather hanging too long..) and friends can keep up with the Rogers kids.
Stay safe, above all be kind. Don’t be stupid, be careful.
Long time no see! I don’t really have anything mind blowing to share. Or anything new or fun for that matter. Not a lot happens after 21 days in quarantine. However, since I stopped doing our “quarantine videos” (I lost all creativity after just a few days). But I’m still the documenting type. So, I’m just posting this random post because I just have to begin somewhere, right? When I look back and read this in a few years I’m going to laugh at my stupidity. I might laugh so bad I fall out of chair saying “I don’t recall losing my mind that much, ho ho, ha ha, he he”.
Well, at least I might give my future self a laugh.
Today we are going to try and order delivery from one of the few restaurants that still get to offer it. During these 21 days I’ve cooked all days and almost all meals. I mean I’m proud of my.. Let’s just call it – bullet proof food menu. But oh my, I’m so TIRED of my own cooking. And if we do manage to order. I hope we order enough so we can eat it for todays.
Saturday, or.. Well.. Any day, I guess. But that means no home schooling for the kids and they want to spend the day playing TV-games. I’m all in, food in sofa, games, movies and maybe a little writing.
I guess it isn’t too bad to stay in, today.
Take care who ever ends up reading thia nonsense.
Well, Adios for now.
Ps. Also for those wondering after we’ve lived here 7-8 months. I do not know more Spanish than before. At all.
Hola, It’s been a while and here’s a little update about the kids. Time passes by so fast! Tomorrow it’s their last day of their very first term at Laude. I don’t think any of us have understood this year has already come to it’s end. It still feels a little strange feeling that our children now go to school. What happened to our babies? And it was in May/June we decided to move to Spain, how can it already be December?
One big change in Wilhlem and Alba is that now they’ve started to find their own identities without each other. Their little personality are flourishing and it’s amazing to see them create new friendships. I consider us to be lucky for not having to struggle with sibling fights or rivalry. I mean of course they have disagreed, but still , above all they’re best friends. Most of all they have each others backs as if they’ve been in combat together in a previous life. A part of me thinks that if (god forbid) I’d get a phone call that one of my children have commit a crime or somehow got themselves into trouble, I’m pretty sure the other one will be sitting on the same chair, just as guilty. Completely ready to bring the world down just to defend the other. I wouldn’t want to have it any other way, let’s all just keep our fingers crossed that their loyalty only will be needed for good deeds.
Anyway, now they do fight a little more and don’t give in to each other as easily. Opinions are stronger and they are ready to stand their ground. Usually one ends up winning, because at the end of the day they still want to play and do everything together. There are days when I hear them trying to compromise, they’re getting there. We will be receiving the kids school report from this term tomorrow. So I’ll know more then about how things are going. But I’d like to mention that Willes teacher has said that he is doing very well in maths – which he also thinks is fun. I just love that. Especially at thins age, this is a level I understand..
Yesterday was a “big” day for both kids. Alba had a show and Wilhelm was going to present his country in front of the class, in front of children and their parents. Both at 14.30, so picture me running between two different class rooms every five minutes. Alba had a little dance, we made a Christmas cracker and then I went to Wille.
Look, this was a homework, which I had NOT received information about, until the day before. I said, well, we have not prepared for that. A teacher said, that’s okay, there are a few children who will not be doing it. So I thought, okay. (Sometimes we get a list of homework to choose from, so I also thought some kids chose this.) Before continuing I want to explain that the parents who did get the information said it wasn’t good enough, they didn’t know if a few questions just should be answered or make it bigger. Some families had done amazing presentations with printed photos, they brought foods and treats typical from their home country and, well, it was nice. I would have preferred to know so all children could make the same kind of effort.
Anyway, as it’s all about to end, about 15.40 Wille asks when it’s his turn. I said, he’s not on the list. He says he wants to – well first of all, I’m that lousy mother who didn’t make a frikkin’ power point OR make Swedish meatballs. So I knew, I need to fix this somehow. Can you imagine? Was my son disappointed? Was he sad at me for not standing there with an apron serving homemade gingerbread cookies? I looked around at all tired children and parents, knowing we might also only have their attention for about 20 seconds. Well, I asked Willes adorable teacher if Wille could do it too. She smiled and said she would be very pleased if he did! So, we were up next and the last ones. I couldn’t whisper too much to Wille, because a child was speaking. So I just told him that Stockholm is Swedens capital, that we will do our own thing and I will instead interview him, just follow my lead – oh, and we are going to dance and sing “små grodorna”. Willes teacher says it’s Wilhelms turn, that he is new in school and is still learning English.
I couldn’t believe my eyes, coolest boy in the world goes to sit down in front of everyone. I was terrified:
Me: Hello, what’s your name? Wille: Wilhelm.
Me: Where are you from? Wille: Sweden.
Me: Where were you born? Wille: MALTA!
Me: Whaaaaaat? That’s not Sweden! Wille: Haha, no!
Me: Okay, but you lived in Sweden, what’s the capital? Wille: umm hmm. sssss…. STOCKHOLM!
Me: Okay, and what do we eat in Sweden with Lingon berries? Wille: Hmm… mm, potatoes..?
Me: And…..? Wille: MEATBALLS!
Me: What do we look forward to in summer? Wille: PIZZA!!!!! ** everyone laughs.
Me: Yes, pizza, but midsummer too! Should show how we dance and sing? Me* I shortly explain that children and adults dance around singing about frogs with no eas or tails… we danced for about 5 seconds, but still.
Me: I have one last question, who do you love more your mum or dad? Everyone including Wille laughs. Wille: I can not answer anything. (Yes, he said those words, creating a whole sentence in English!!!)
Phu! We all left the class room and Wilhelm and I high fived, jumped up and down and he was super happy. And me? Well, I could have done all of those lovely things that the other parents did. But, hey, I made sure my boy did it, by “it” I mean to speak in front of people, to use a new language, just like that. He enjoyed it, he was not frightened. We had fun and he loved that he made people laugh. The most important to me is to know he will want to do it again. And I saw him grow a couple of inches. I will not win mum of the year, but wow, I get to be HIS mother year after year.
(When I left the kids to school his morning a mum told me they really liked our presentation. Ha! I did a mental high five and wanted to run in to Wille and tell him!)
When we came back in to Alba she completely broke down, I had missed a song. Her teacher said all was fine until she saw me. I explained that at that very moment I needed to be there for Wilhelm. That they both need to know that I was there, I was happy to be there, but I can’t be at two places at once. Albas teacher is so sweet and soon our little browned eyed girl smiled again.
Overall good, I’m exhausted. Everyone who knows me,
a lot of people – anxiety,
a loud sound level -anxiety
Other parents, what if I’m judged? – anxiety
Speaking in front of a large group, unprepared – anxiety deluxe.
My two kids happy – I’d carry the anxiety of the whole world to make them smile.